i don't know what to do,.. i'm disappointed,.. i'm mad at myself,... falling to this tricky obsessed world,.. pain have brought me here,. not it's bringing me here again,.. i thought it's alright, but it cannot be fine,. at least's i wanna bring the past back and change the chapter where it all its started,.. why should i felt it again,. i wanna let go! haiz, i really don't know what to do,.. i should act like it's ok and nothing had happened? tsk,. but looking to the eyes, i can't lie,.. it's my weakness for long i didn't conquer,. speechless, shyness, emo's are just the examples,.. i don't want to lose a friend as well as i don't to lose good inspiration,. but i don't want to lie what's behind either! it's crazy,. i know i'm crazy,.. since when i didn't crazy about these matters?!! haiz,. and now, if i don't make a move, i guess i'll lose it what i treasured, and stick to memories only,.. i don't want this friendship ends up memories,. like these pasts i've thought it would lasts,..